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My bones feel like they are slowly rotting I gaze at the stars as I slowly waste away Nobody seems to know that I'm dying Will the sickness try to steal me today? Locked in a room with my little secret Turn off the light and bask in bitterness Think of all the lies I've told to keep it All this emptiness seems to be boundless Close my eyes as the pain washes through me Can't let anybody figure this out This thing destroying me no one can see I'll glue on a smile and scrape off the pout My sickness is my only companion

Failure Failure Failure Is the word etched by tears on my pillow case Is what nothing can seem to erase When everyday I'm reminded You failed You failed You failed Here are your consequences Take them and smile so there aren't any more Pretend it's ok so you don't lose anything else It doesn't make sense. Everything was fine before What did I do? How can I undo it? I fear my thoughts I fear my words They are failures like me Reconstruct my walls Slowly Maybe then I won't fail anybody.

I love you And I love chocolate If you drowned in chocolate I probably would pull you out Then eat the chocolate You're like a marshmallow But you're not pasty white and gushy Congratulations IT'S A GIRL!! We think. I will buy you anything From dollar tree Because you're worth it Twinkle twinkle little star Harry has a lighting scar If you were in a wheelchair I would push you around And steal it and push myself around Mostly the last one But remember... I love you. Kinda.

Concrete walls Grotesque murals of burgundy Tales of madness and hysteria Etched by infuriated fingers Ferocious fingers tearing away at their encumbrance itching for revenge cracked and crusty fingernails caked with crimson plunge into her arms as she shrieks the walls suffocate sound none hearken to her demented strain none regard the yellowed stalagmite teeth that jut and hang from black gums that gnaw furiously at her shackles nobody sees her eyes scorching and searing with hatred and hellfire but are equally empty and hollow she is truly, utterly alone her muffles screeches quicken my heartbeat it is i that must keep her contained concea

Held by someone Safe and warm Snuggled tightly In a storm Gentle sweet memory Smolders like an ember Surrounded by ashes of What I can not remember...

In your arms Seeing your shining smile I feel your warmth even as we part Always safe in your sweet embrace Inside my heart You have a special place You're a part of me You have an influence none can erase No blood or official connection Tied by friendship and affection My soul smiles because i know As long as I love you And you love me We're our own kind of family.